Dreaming Out Loud

a little bit of everything

2010-08-20T04:47:00.000-07:00

Again, its been forever since i've blogged. There isnt any excuse i could possibly give as to why i have neglected my blog.

Things have been super mad since i've moved into a new house ( named THE MAD HOUSE ) with my two PSYCHOTIC housemates, Ashwinni Sarah & Akash Nath! The house is another story on its own. The gist of it? Its basically an OLD house that has the OLD estatic decos' in it. We do have friends that come and visit us very often. Everyday really. The creepy crawlies! Haha! The spiders, the worms and everything else. But despite all that, its what we call home :)

Other than that, things have been pretty good. Uni has been alright so far. Subjects this semester are pretty fun as well.

- Scriptwriting for Live Performance
- Light, Space & Sound
- Creative & Feature Writing
- Public Relations 2

Of which im kinda growing to like :)

Certainly im missing everyone. Missing my family and my crazy friends. There are times you just sorta slip away and be alone to sort of like sink everything in. Who would of thought after 6 months of being here, you'd still miss home? haha.....

you do.

Tick Tock

2010-06-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

Its just 4 days left till i head to Melbourne, and....

8 days till I head home.

I feel like bursting into a dance number in the middle of the busy road!

I CANNOT wait to go to Melb and spent time with Shobz, Dinesh and Mike and have heaps of fun!

I CANNOT wait to go home and FEED myself till im BLOATED.

I CANNOT wait to meet my mom, sis, grandparents, cousins, uncles, aunties, my entire family!

I CANNOT wait to see my gorgeous bunch of crazy whacked buddies.

I just CANNOT wait.

ugh... now just finish this ONE damn French test tomorrow and START PACKING!!!

Sailing Back the Abandon Ship

2010-06-05T09:40:00.001-07:00

So its 2.09am in the morning and i cant sleep.

Ever since Uni, i just have not been sleeping early. I guess it kinda has its pro's and cons. Its been almost been 5 months of me being here in the Land Down Under and since the last post (points below). ALOT has happened since i left homeland. ALOT. Life has *touch wood* never been better. Im really liking it here in Aussie. Its been a warm welcome. I thank my girls ( Chui, Pao, Joyce & Ash) for making my time here WORTH every single second. THANK YOU GIRLS ALOT.

I do miss home alot. I miss mum, my sister & bro in law and everyone else. I miss everyone. I miss my friends whom make me smile and laugh till my tummy hurts. I miss the FOOD. I just miss home. Yes, things may not be good in Msia.. it does get pretiligi falagucked, but its still HOME. I miss my girls and boys in Aussie as well. Those who are SO close yet SO far. I miss my date partner all the way in NZ and my drinking partner all the way in India. I miss you all loads. Im really looking forward to coming home in June and meeting up with most of you.

So things here have changed, things with me have changed. My thinking towards life and uni work and stuff is alot more different. I do see myself being a lot more responsible and confident. I guess its true what my bro and sister told me before, you do grow up when you're away from home. You arent pampered as how you are back home. Looked after, more like it. You do have to learn to manage things. Also, I've met someone. Yes, i think i finally found a GOOD guy. *touch wood* We are taking things one day at a time. Living the moment. Its great that he's not one of those guys who's possesive, obssesive, wanting to be around you, all up on your face, kinda person. Lets see how that works out :)

Live life as life wishes to live.

Its gonna be a good life :)

Land Down Under

2010-02-18T04:13:00.000-08:00

And so, the journey begins..

Thank You's

2010-02-06T09:25:00.001-08:00

Thank you to my family and friends for making the farewell's go smoothly! I loved seeing all of you and spending time, be it even just awhile with all of you :) Thanks for all the presents! Thanks for all the memories we've had and more to come!

You being there, meant alot to me. Im gonna miss all you. Heaps.

Thank god for Technology. Thank God for Skype and Facebook.

this may be short and simple, but it comes from the heart.

Affair with Adidas

2010-01-30T07:05:00.000-08:00

I've been looking for an Adidas shoes for quite sometime now and i finally managed to buy one which i like! although it is plain and simple, i still LOVE it! I changed the shoelaces to black to give it a better look rather than having an overpowering white feel overall.

I have now the complete set! I have a lime green Hoodie, a White watch, Black & White Cap and Now, This shoe!

" Impossible is Nothing"

this is my new affair, with Adidas :)

Trippin'

2010-01-29T07:09:00.000-08:00

This was by far the most chilled out and the most FUN i've had with you bunch in a LONG WHILE. I couldnt have asked for any other person to exchange places with the bunch of you. The fact that we did things as we went and nothing was pre planned, the fact that we had such a GOOD DEAL on the villa that we stayed in, the fact that we had a private pool at the backyard, the fact that it was with YOU guys that i was with.. just made everything, great!

Funny thing, when i got home that night.. i went to the back of my house and i was like.. "huh... no pool.. ;( " and i miss coming back to the villa and having the SMILING faces of the bunch walking about around the house. As Kevin said, maybe we should have stayed another night? i wish we could stay MANY nights.

Here are some interesting quotes that were frequently used or said during the trip:

" I jizzed in my pants"

"Limau Kuning" - Lemon

"Blow hard and hold it there"

"Explosion in the pants in my mouth"

"Doped"

and not forgetting...

"TRIPPIN' "

Thank you Kevin Heera, Michael Yap, Yuvraj Singh, James Cheong, & Brian Saw. You guys are the sweetest and most caring bunch of men i know. I mean that :)

Thank you Chui Ki Lee & Shobini Balraj for making the trip worth every minute and just being great listeners and great fun to be around with :):)

i love you bunch :)

~9 days left

26 days left

2010-01-12T22:04:00.000-08:00

I know counting down the days for my departure could or would be an unnecessary thing to do. Heck, even my mom thinks it is. But you know why i am counting?

I'm counting cuz i have to keep reminding myself that there's only limited amount of time left to spend with the people i love the most.

Im counting cuz i have to keep telling myself to get down to some SERIOUS packing but im reluctant to touch the luggage bags.

Im counting cuz i have to keep telling myself that when i leave now, im leaving Msia. Im not coming back to LIVE years like i how i used to.

Im counting cuz i KNOW, that im gonna MISS everyone and everything that i've lived with for the past 19 years of my life.

and on the 20th year of my life.. THIS life now,

I'll be counting down the days of when i graduate and start working in a field i love best.

I'll be counting down the days of when i book my flights to come visit Msia.

I'll be counting down the days.. to spend time with the people i love.

Cheers,

To a NEW beginning.

and the Countdown.. BEGINS NOW.

heard of?

2010-01-05T01:44:00.000-08:00

Anyone heard of Kevin Zegers? No?

Despite his DAMN GOOD LOOKS, he's actually a fairly good actor. He did an respectable job on the movie called Transamerica opposite the side of Felicity Huffman ( who was nominated for a Best Actress nomination for this role ) playing a transgender and the endevours he/she goes through to take that FINAL CUT. A real insight on how the "other sex" lives are like.

here are some pictures of him during his modelling days. *drools*

Transamerica

Rounding Up 2009

2009-12-30T19:30:00.000-08:00

One minute i was at The Curve with a bunch of my close buddies celebrating the START of 2009 and the next minute i'm cleaning the house and preparing things to welcome my close buddies to my house to celebrate the END of 2009 and the BEGINNING of 2010. Is it just me or does every year go by faster than the year before?

These are some of the Highlights of 2009 for me :

-My Sister & Manny's Engagement and Wedding (14/3/2009 & 14/11/2009)

-The Bunchos girls ALL OF US at my place (04/01/2009)

-Starting my Degree in Taylor's University (02/03 /2009)

- Cameron Trip with Bro's friends, Troy & Darlene and their kids (24-26/06/2009)

-Family Trip to Kerala, India (5-15/7/2009)

- Sister's Best Friend's Engagement- Lalitha (17/9/2009)

- Diwali Celebration at my place (20/10/2009)

- Meeting NEW Friends at Taylors University (No date- all year through)

Its been a GREAT 2009 and i couldn't have asked it to be ANY better. I'm glad i have my Family and my friends to make it the way it was! Its the end of another year and alot to look forward to for the next.

Most of all, I know what i want in life and i'm comfortable with my own skin. I've grown up to be more responsible and independent.

Thank YOU EVERYBODY for making this year SPECTACULAR SPECTACULAR!!

-38 days and counting-

i love you for catching me when i fall :)

2009-12-16T07:03:00.000-08:00

You girls and boy mean the WORLD to me. you know that? we've all been through SO much together.i know now:

if anytime i fall.. you would be there to pick me back up again.

if things go sour, you will be there to make things sweet again.

i love you girls and boy SO much and i'm glad that you girls are my sisters and brother :)

My Boyfriend

My Adorable Affair

My Lesbian Lover

My Date Darling

My Drinking Huney

My Sharing Partner

without you all around, life would be dull.. <3

Ms Sagittarius Partner :)

2009-12-08T21:07:00.000-08:00

MY DEAR DARLING LOKZHA..

We've known each other since we were 11 years old..

We've seen each other blossom.

We've been through SO much together.

You've always been there.

You've always tried to make me laugh.

You've always been vocal about your opinions.

You've always been truthful.

You've always been Yourself.

You've always been..

YOU.

Things have been rough with you not being around,

But that just tests our grounds of being friends,

and i'm glad, we still keep in touch despite the distance.

i love you very much my dear darling Sagittarius partner.

ALWAYS will.

HAPPY 19TH B'DAY LOKZHA DEAREST :)

You pretty HOT little thang, YOU! *winks*

Sweet Sixteen :)

2009-12-07T06:34:00.000-08:00

dear Preetha Sukumaran..

a.k.a My cousin a.k.a My little poyo partner a.k.a My dance crazy Darling a.k.a My small no blood connection Sister.

Happy 16th Bday darling!!

cant believe you've grown up so much and SO fast!

you have been a like a little sister to me and will always be :)

i love you very much! <3

Meet Ixy :)

2009-11-28T07:23:00.000-08:00

FINALLY, after months of waiting patiently and using my sister's camera when needed.. i have finally bought my own :)

Meet IXY! =D

Known as the Canon PowerShot SD780 IS

Slimmest Canon Compact Camera- 18.4mm thick

12.1 megapixels

3x optical zoom lens with Optical Image Stablizer

2.5 inch LCD screen

Gold Metal Body

It may not be such a kickass camera, but it is TO ME and I AM IN LOVE WITH IT!! :):)

only more reason to have another 70 albums added on Facebook!

haha! *winks*

what to do? what to do? what to do?

2009-11-21T07:36:00.000-08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH MY 1ST YEAR OF MY DEGREE!!!

yet, clueless about what to do to fill up my time...

Crazy! how 1 year just flew by that quickly! i remember the first day of Orientation, my first few classes in Sem1 and Sem 2, how lost i was in the beginning!, the rooftop with the garden, the lecturers and the DRAMA! ( literally-Acting )

ALL the new buddies i got to know and GLAD that i STILL know them well and of whom i'll miss dearly. No doubt, this first year has made me grow up SO much more and indulge myself in the field i love. I've become more responsible and alot more comfortable and confident with myself. i've learned things i NEVER knew how to operate to begin with and now, i can safely say.. I DO. ( might need some help though! ;) )

its been a good and bad first year in University here in Taylor's School of Communication and i'm looking forward to head to my new campus in Magill, South Australia.

Now, enough with the sappy stuff! I cant wait for my darlings girls, SHOBINI & LOKZHA to come home soon! missing them OH SO DEARLY and we the BUNCHOS are READY for more LOUD AND CRAZY FUN to come!!

otherwise..

anyone wants to go out?

cuz, I'M FREEEEEEEEE!! :)

oh! and i'm proud to welcome a new member to the family, Mr Emmanuel Dhoss! my brother in law :):)

Glad the whole wedding went on well! Love you two SOO MUCH! <3

if this is what True Love really means, then i cant wait to find him :)

Counting down days till the Wedding Bells ring!

2009-11-05T20:16:00.000-08:00

I remember the days where we would lie in bed, sing Disney songs or any song for that matter and talk for hours.

I remember the days where we had a large bottle brush tree and we would climb it to sit on the top and just watch the world pass us by.

I remember the days where we ran outside and play in the cold rain and run back in to have a HOT bath!

I remember the days when she first left to Dublin and i cried my eyes out and so did she.

I remembered the days where we would just take crazy pictures of ourselves for fun.

and Now, in almost a week from today, my dear sister will be wed to one of the most sweetest, lovable, trusting, HANDY person, EMMANUEL DHOSS.

This is for YOU chech, for all that we've been through and more years to come :)

I LOVE YOU :)

Do i look like the bride? =S

2009-10-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

"WISH YOU A HAPPY MARRIED LIFE!!"

* Indian slang*

Its kinda funny and sorta upsetting as i walk into the houses of most of the relatives only to find that they think.... I'M THE BRIDE!!

DO I LOOK OLD ENOUGH TO BE MARRIED????

Honestly! Only after my cousin brother, CUDSON mentioned it..maybe i DO look older than my age! =s ( and i thought after changing my hairdo, that i'll look younger.. =S )

haha! and its funny saying it all the time..

"NO NO NO. Its not me. Its my sister! " *Indian slang*

although i must admit one thing, its fun going around seeing relatives! (though tiring and still MORE houses to go!) but its fun to see all the familiar faces after SO long and all of which are VERY excited bout the upcoming wedding!!

only 3 weeks left!

The front look of the wedding card!

Its actually rectangular in shape, embedded intricate indian design and a dark shade of green with yellow & red beeds stuck on it.

The most beautiful card i've ever seen :)

To MY Lesbian Lover =)

2009-10-14T23:13:00.000-07:00

Its been 1 year.

and you have grown and matured so fast.

Its been 1 year.

and you still are the same CRAZY-SWEET-LOVABLE-CARING-PRETTY-DARLING -SMARTEST person i know.

Its been 1 year.

and our friendship has become much tighter even though you're miles away.

Its been 1 year.

and u still look the same! haha :):)

Its been 1 year.

and i still dont love you any less than before. in fact, i love you more!

Its been 1 year,

and you're in Melbourne.

Its been 1 year.

and you're photography is beautiful!! thanks to shutter and your inborn talent ;)

Its been 1 year.

and i still remember your previous b'day and how SWEET & STICKY is was.

Its been 1 year.

and you are the most sincere person i know.

Its been 1 year.

and you have become wiser.

Its been 1 year.

and you just turned 19.

Its amazing how much has changed over the past year.

I love you very much my dear darling SHOBINI BALRAJ! its upsetting that you're not here and we cant celebrate this day with you but when u come back.. we definitely will!

Hope you have a GREAT year ahead sweets! as i said,

Its your last year of being a TEEN. enjoy it while you can!

Love you muchos, my dear darling god sister of mine! <3<3

One person i never want to lose :)

2009-10-12T02:35:00.000-07:00

Its finally here!

Here i come UniSA!

3 and half months to Adelaide!

I got Love in my tummy :):)

2009-10-01T18:39:00.000-07:00

Thats prolly two ways a person could look at the title of this post.

One, I ate something REALLY good and my tummy is VERY satisfied. Or,

Two, i have butterflies in my tummy everytime i see a certain someone and it makes my tummy churn.

Love in my tummy.

i wouldnt call it "love" as its too strong a word to use and maybe a little to fast to say so.. but "attracted & like" would prolly be the best suited.

Hence, you decide how you want to see it...

...I know how i want to see it :)

Met Jacob Yet?

2009-09-24T02:27:00.000-07:00

this is my new baby : Jacob!

Happy 19th B'day Deranged Boyfriend! =D

2009-09-18T21:55:00.000-07:00

This may come in early.

Dear Dhevia Kalyana Sundram- deranged boyfriend-chutney-Mama of all Hot Mama's- my 9 year best friend!

This is for you and why I LOVE you so much!!

you're one person i will always turn to whenever i need a shoulder to cry on.

you're one person who showers your love without fail.

you're one person who has a brilliant mind.

you're one person who knows whats right, whats wrong and WHEN to break the rules.

you're one person who'll make a GREAT leader.

you're one person who i can go crazy, whacky and manja with!

you're one person who i know is beautiful inside and out, a beautiful soul.

you're one person whom i call my best girl friend.

you're one person whom i call my sister.

you're one person who i never regretted knowing.

you're one person i will always, CHERISH.

cheers to you Dhevia Kalyana Sundram, for being you!

Love you to bits <3

Dont we love Happy Endings? =)

2009-09-16T22:29:00.000-07:00

Start of my one and half week holidays was by watching my favourite old time Disney Movie, Pocahontas. She is my disney queen :) i love her spirit of adventure, her emotional connection with people, the ample amount of love she gives, and they joy she brings to others. always admired her :)

and after that, i decided to watch Sleeping Beauty. My cousin Suvanya said that i used to sing "Once upon a dream" with my sister when i was younger. true that! my sister and i were big fans of disney movies, hers being Beauty and the Beast. we used to remember all the words in each song in the Disney movies we loved. Sleeping beauty was one of them :)

lastly i watched Beauty and the Beast. only because its the one movie that i can sing along and mutter almost every line in the movie with my sister. haha!

and the best part of all.....

is that there's always a happy ending.... =)

Living life for what its worth

2009-09-07T08:17:00.000-07:00

I dont understand WHAT or WHY you're doing what you're doing to me. NOT like i did anything to even begin with. Know what? with the help of my girls, Shobini Balraj and Chui Ki, also not forgetting the boy, Kevin Heera..

Its time i live my life for what its worth while i still have the time than to worry about you.

Though i might be upset now and though you've hurt me in a way you may not even notice..i'm still going to be your friend whenever and wherever you need me to be.

aint gonna change anything. at least not anytime soon.

eventually will.

need i say more?

cant you see that i'm the one who understands you?

2009-08-23T07:37:00.000-07:00

recently there's been a certain feeling that i'm developing for this certain someone. but i know i shouldnt act on this certain feeling cuz it might hurt a certain someone. for if i act on this certain feeling for that certain someone..and if that certain someone doesnt have the same certain feeling that i'm feeling, then this certain someone may choose not to bother about this certain soul right here.

and that is certainly NOT want she wants.

and this certainly doesnt help the situation, does it?

warren and i nicknamed him.. sweet balless :) haha! *dont ask*

The things i'm going to miss

2009-07-31T22:13:00.000-07:00

Its been 1 month. 1 month that i worked in the Fossil store in Pyramid. and i must say, i have learned TONS on how to manage a shop as well as attending to the customer's needs. alot of ups and downs..but in the end, it was all worthwhile. here are the things i'm definitely going to miss..

1) my bucket and old rag i use to wipe the shelves and glasses every morning for housekeeping.

2) sticking the model tags on the respected items

3) making sure the watches and bags are properly placed at all times

4) sneaking some food to eat at the back of the store-haha :)

5) looking over to LEVI'S ALL THE TIME when we have nothing to do

6) listening to the same 20 songs everyday, played at least 7 times one day

7) having my crazy family and friends kacauing me at work

8) meeting customer's who are so much fun to serve

9) the repair watches/service book.

10) the pretty bags, wallets, belts, jewelry and watches at Fossil.

11) GOT my friends and family to know about Fossil more!

it was so much fun working in Fossil! but there are loads of places for improvement which i will talk to my boss about soon. *winks*

Fossil~ What Vintage Are You?~

Working at Fossil

2009-07-01T19:34:00.001-07:00

02 July 2009

well, i officially start work, TODAY.

went in this morning, saw my boss.. Miss Mia. she's a soft voice, nice lady. filled in some forms, and told me to come back at 1.30pm to start! she gave me a catalog like thingy, to go through the summer collection products. i LOVE some of the summer products. never knew fossil had that many products. always knew it to be a Watch shop but its not! its got jewellery, bags, belts, sunnies..and so on. however, some of those things are sold here. but its beautiful nonetheless!! wanted to show you some of my favourites! :)

starting from the top:

This beautiful piece of jewellery is in the Curiosities Cabinet collection. The designer for this collection was inspired by a life-science exhibit in the National Design Museum in the US. i LOVE IT!

next: the sunnies!

I love how they inocorporated the beautiful design to the sunnies. its chic, cool and simply AWESOME!

moving on: the Talita bag!

The designer for this collection of Talita bags was walking down the market last spring and was inspired by the brightly coloured fruits and vege's and all its various shapes, sizes and texture. I LOVE how these sun-baked colours pop out so beautifully on the bag!

Lastly: the bracelet.

I love this one cuz of the intricacy of the design. the beautiful colours really stands out when you wear it.

End but Its just The Beginning =)

2009-06-22T00:18:00.000-07:00

DONE!

(yes, i went a little loony! ;p )

ABSOLUTELY OVER!

this is the end of the first semester for my first year in my degree!

and the beginning of a very well deserved holiday :)

as well as, the beginning of interesing things in the future!

(and a little poyo ;P )

RobSten!

2009-06-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

have you heard the latest on Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart? If you haven't, read on! :)

"yes, girls! Kristen Stewart wised up and finally picked Rob over the boyfriend. We hear that despite the cross-country difference, Rob and Kristen have very much stayed "in touch."

" Rob and Kristen finally emerged together this afternoon. Check out K's disheveled hair! If that doesn't scream bed-head, we don't know what does. Love how X17 is "exclusively" saying they are together."

" Kristen had a dinner date alone with Robert Pattinson! Poor Robsten even had to have a police escort out of the restaurant, taking them back to their West Hollywood hotel…together" - E Online

Its coming to an End

2009-06-11T19:51:00.000-07:00

Amazing isnt it how time flies? next week will be the end of my first semester for my degree program. it scares me a little. =S

i still remeber going in for orientation not knowing anyone and now i'm glad to say that i do have a good group of people to just chill out with. it takes time to say that they're my best buds in uni, but hey, time makes things better right?

i'm happy to have them around :)

still have 2 assignments left.

Neglection

2009-05-31T01:09:00.000-07:00

I'M UPSET.

I'M SAD.

I'M NOT DEPRESSED.

I'M NOT IN THE MOOD FOR PHONE CALLS.

I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TO HEAR EMO SONGS.

I'M ANGERED BY HOW SOME PEOPLE TREAT ME.

I'M FEELING....

NEGLECTED.

maybe it's a phase or its something i'm going through right now, but i'm not happy.

the cause of it? i feel out of place. in Uni and sometimes at home. i feel like no one gives a SHIT that i exist. i feel like i care SO much but i get NONE in return.

yes i understand, work gets you all caught up. dont have time to speak to family or whatever. but if i send you text.. the least you could do is... REPLY ME BACK.

sometimes i wonder...

WHY THE FUCK DO I CARE?

pffft.. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY..my ass..

Motherland =)

2009-05-17T03:57:00.000-07:00

I was called a "poet" by my cousin Preet throughout this one week journey because i wrote down everything that we did everyday in my little journal. and that is what i'll be sharing with you. =)

07 May 2009

08.30pm

F30---> Boarding terminal.

Excellent! Had to run to the Watsons to get a 100ml bottle to put my contact lens solution in it. Goodbye Cherry Blossom & Cassis Rose Lotion. Muttons!!

10.35pm

Boarded the plane. didnt expect to see that many Indian/Keralaites in the plane! who am i kidding?

haha! ah! plane food. yummy..chicken curry with vege rice. not too bad :)

half an hour later..

Beer and Orange Juice kicking in! i never knew they served alcohol on the plane! HELLO MISS!! ONE MORE BEER PLEASE :):)

08 May 2009

12.30pm

Went to Grand Hotel to have lunch with Aunty Sabina's family. Met her husband and her two sons, Johan and Rohan. Johan is 22 and studying Medicine and Rohan, 18 just finished school. we had the famous Curry Meen( Curry Fish ). it was quite the sedap but it reminded me very much of our very own.. IKAN BAKAR! haha :)

07.02pm

SHOP TILL YOU DROP!

thats exactly what we all did today! 10am till 6pm! Store hopping and shopped till we were dead exhausted. BUT... the buys were EXQUISITE and absolutely REASONABLE prices!! going back to Star Lagoon Homes/Apartment in Cochin to have dinner and sleep. thats what i need right now... SLEEP!

Good news!!

ATTA GOT HIS PERMANENT RECIDENCE FOR AUSTRALIA TODAY!! wooooooot ;)

and...

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEVIN HEERA :) *hugs*

09 May 2009

12.25pm

Up in the early morning and went to a temple in Chottanikarra. Then drove for an hour to another temple in Guruvayoor. beautiful temples. ancient. its amazing how they preserved the beauty of the temple after all these years.

Had lunch and went to Horizon International Hotel. Walked about along the Guruvayoor temple street in the evening. bought some jewellery and some sweets. the place is packed with people!

10 May 2009

09.15am

Woke up at 5am, got dressed and left to go to Guruvayoor temple for the wedding. Didnt manage to get any sleep last night. 5 people squashed in one room wasnt the easiest to deal with. 7am was when the wedding is suppose to start. apparently, 200 weddings are going to take place in the temple today! 200! thats crazy isnt it! explains why there are thousands of people in the temple. everyone pushing so that they can get a clear view. Then, it was our Bride to go the podium. The groom went up, then she went up. he tied the wedding chain around her. He puts the garland on her and she puts the garland on him. they go around the fire and pray to God. and they walk out of the podium. Wedding ends. all in all, it only took no more than 10 minutes!

Went to a dining hall nearby for the reception breakfast. had a typical Malyalee breakfast and went back to the hotel. packed our things to leave to Palakkad at 2pm.

4.00pm

Arrived at Sri Chakra International Hotel. The rooms werent very clean at all. it was dusty, as if it had not been cleaned for a couple of days. food arrived an hour late. we werent very pleased with the hotel service. We went out for dinner someplace nearby. NoorJehan Restaurant. Shopped at the Big Bazaar then went back to the hotel.

11 May 2009

4.50pm

Had a good night's sleep. one single bed to myself. Had breakfast at the hotel and got ready to leave at 11am. Visited a couple of houses today. all relatives. Had some issues in one of the houses where my grandfather claimed that it was his father's property. but all turned out well. Sent Aunty Mira ( Aunty Vanaja's aunty ) back to her villa near the paddy fields. she owns some parts of the paddy fields. after saying our goodbyes...left to Guruvayoor. Reached Mayura Residency at 8.05pm. Beautiful Hotel. had dinner and hit the sack.

12 May 2009

1.40pm

Awake at 6am. Got ready to go to Guruvayoor temple. What a crowd! Finally had someone to help gets in. it was definitely one of the best feelings i had when i went into that temple. got to see the Lord himself for a good time. The temple is kept the same way it was before. anciently beautiful. Went to another temple called Mahimayur. Story goes, When one of the Guru's and the Wind God(Vayu) came down to Earth, they landed on a spot that Lord Shiva was on. Lord Shiva saw them and told them that they can have that land and he will find another. The Guru and the Wind God named that place Guruvayoor and Shiva named his place Mahimayur. Saying goes, you have to visit Mahimayur after visiting Guruvayoor in order to make the whole thing complete.

After all the temple visiting, we left to Cochin. Arrived at Cochin, checked in the same hotel we were in before..Star Lagoon Homes. Preet and I wanted to go to the pool side cuz we were bored. lazed on the chair..took a couple of photos until a bunch of boys came by. Around 6 ish, all the girls decided to go to a jewellery shop called Goodwill. OMG! that place is HUGE and its got the most BEAUTIFUL things!!! we told the driver we're only staying for about half and hour..turns out we stayed for 3 hours!!

13 May 2009

10.04am

On our way to the boat house at Allapey. Rained cats and dogs last night. Cloudy morning..just the right weather to go on the boat ride.

2.30pm

AMAZING! thats all i can say. Seeing the people alongside the backwaters of India made me realise how lucky i am. People here dont even have proper water source to bathe or even drink. the use the river water which is somewhat polluted. catch fishes here and live on the resources around. coconut water and stuff of that sort. I am blessed to be where i am now.

The food the boat men served us was FANTASTIC! he caught HUGE LOBSTER sized PRAWNS along the way as well as buying some Todi (fermented coconut-alcohol). They served us, Masala Fried Prawns, Fish Fried, Curry Chicken, Dhal, Cabbage stir fried, Okra masala, Brown Rice and Papadum. it was DELICIOUS! it was one GREAT experience!

05.15pm

Kathakali! Arrived at the Cochin Arts Centre and watched how they put the make up on one another. the make up is made out of Chantanam (yellow powder), Herbs. All natural make up products. The eye expressions of these men during the Kathakali was SPECTACULAR! It is said that it takes a minimum of 6years to train to become a full fledged Kathakali dancer. It started off with just men dancing and remained that way because back in the days, women were too shy to come out and dance. so the men did the dancing and acted in both male and female roles. Now, times have changed. women are learning to perfect the art of Kathakali.

14 May 2009

11.00am

Woke up at 7am. Had breakfast in India for the last time in this trip. Headed to the Jewish Settlement to see the Synagogue. It's such a beautiful place. Showing the place where the Maharaja stayed and held meetings. the place was surrounded by beautiful chandeliars.

4.00pm

Shopped till we dropped, AGAIN! this time we only went to one place. Joyalukka's. they have the most beautiful and reasonably cheap punjabi suit materials! repacked everything once we reached the hotel. Have to leave at 6pm to Aunty Sabina's house for dinner.

7.00pm

Beautiful house. its sort of like a 3 story building. first floor is the house/apartment itself. 2nd floor is the bed rooms and the 3rd floor is the rooftop. they call it the terrace. Johan asked me whether i'd like to go to the rooftop and i said sure! so we went there with his brother Rohan and my dearest cousin Preet..and.. what a view! I could see the International Cricket Stadium! talked a lil bit and went downstairs so we could go for dinner.

Reached Central Club. Had a table specially put in the field for all of us to dine for dinner. Johan and Rohan brought Preet and I to the Pool. They have two separate pools. One for the men..bigger and deeper and one for the ladies.. smaller and shallower. DOUBLE STANDARDS! he showed us around the place and went back to the table to have dinner. it was quite nice the food but we kept getting bitten by mosquitoes!

9.15pm

Reached Cochin Airport and checked in and boarded the flight with 12 bags!

15 May 2009

06.15am

Arrived in Singapore. Had the morning sun welcome us. all we want to do is go back and sleep.

When the trip ended, i asked everyone what reminded them most about Kerala, India. This is what they said..

Grandpa: My Father's Land.

Grandma: Food and the big houses.

Mummy : Filled with Culture and very Hospitable people

Unc Sugu: FOOD and there's no special lanes.

Aunty Vanaja: People and their Accent as well as their Hospitality.

Aunty Mai: Shopping! Sarees and Punjabi suits!

Shrawani: Sun, Chai(Tea), HONKING, and Nature

Preetha: HONKING, Jayalaksmi Coffee and Poni Ari( brown rice)

Overall, it was definitely the most fun i have ever had with my family! we got to see almost half of Kerala. and i'm even more so proud to say...

I am a Malyalee and I'm proud of my Culture.

I'll be Seeing You- The Notebook

2009-05-04T23:14:00.000-07:00

I'll be seeing you

In all the old familiar places

That this heart of mine embraces

All day through.

In that small cafe;

The park across the way;

The children's carousel;

The chestnut trees;

The wishin' well.

I'll be seeing you

In every lovely summer's day;

In every thing that's light and gay.

I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you

In the morning sun

And when the night is new.

I'll be looking at the moon,

But I'll be seeing you.

I'll be seeing you

In every lovely summer's day;

In every thing that's light and gay.

I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you

In the morning sun

And when the night is new.

I'll be looking at the moon,

But I'll be seeing you.

~most beautiful song~

Twilight-Director's Notebook

2009-05-03T20:49:00.001-07:00

Twilight-Director's Notebook is written by the Director herself, Catherine. It basically shows how the movie was made.. from the minute she read the book to finding locations..to casting the actors..to make up..visual effects..music/scores and lots more! it is sort of like her journal. its got pictures, scribbles, pasted stuff here and there. sorta like below..

It is also a good reference to aspiring film makers. i LOVED it. it was SO MUCH FUN reading this book. to know the extent they went to make this movie turn out the way it did. it was AWESOME!!

on the other hand,

leaving to India in 2 days!

Is it that simple?

2009-04-26T20:19:00.000-07:00

I just watched He's Just Not That Into You. and it really does open up a woman's mind on how exactly the Male Brain works. All the signs that they are "supposedly" giving.. actually ISNT. this is when i realised.. why do we women dig so much? Dig in the sense that, we really dig to THINK that there so many signs that he's giving, or so many moves that he was showing or words that he was saying.. when actually he wasnt. he was just being.. PLAIN NICE. we women, tend to overthink alot of thing. overanalyse SO many situations and be very sensitive to alot of things. But, who can blame us? we are known as the softer species. the more delicate gender. it is in our nature to be that way. this movie really Made alot of sense to me. and i may be my next Dating Bible. (My first is the Notebook. haha!)

I think Justin Long and Ben Affleck's characters came out most strongly to me. as well as Ginnifer Goodwin. this is a definite must watch for the ladies :)

~10 days to India!~

Searching My Soul

2009-04-19T18:37:00.000-07:00

I havent blogged in a long time. maybe cause i havent figured out what to blog about. everything didnt seem interesting enough to blog. until this week passed by. and boy oh boy..have i got news for you! haha! lets start off with the beginning of the week.

for me, that'll be on a tuesday. that was the day i had to perform for my Effective Communication class. the video is up on Facebook and i must say that i am quite pleased with the end result. i did work very hard to get it the way i wanted it to look. some parts could have been changed but i am happy. after that day, i realised.. is when everyone started opening up a lil more towards me. they asked me questions and just talk. mostly about Uni work but, hey! thats a start. =)

The next day, we had to get into groups of 5 and discuss about a campaign that we want to make the people be aware about. it can be a Real or an Imagined Cause to be brought awareness upon. This was for Public Relations. so my group decided that we'll discuss about it in the mamak where we can eat as well as talk. we wanted to do about a cause that wasnt normal. we knew that everyone would be doing on Global Warming or stuff of that sort. we wanted to be different. so we thought, National Orgasmic Day but we found out that it was already done! 31st July is when its celebrated all over the world! ahahaha! then we decided, lets do "National Love Making Day" and we would have it on the 6/9 to the 9/9. get it?? 69/99. hahaha! that way we are not biased to any gender! we came up with lots of made up actitives to educate the people about this cause and we wanted to sell button badges to raise more awareness. these are the designs!!

LOVE FOR PEACE was our slogan. and the rest of the images are the button badges that we will have for everyone. we start off with the kids where they will have a button badge in a shape of a flower and there will be a bird and bee. you know why :) and the teens would like chain better than a button badge. for the single adults would be half a heart of either a female or male on it. and the married will be both of them joined together. gays and lesbians as seen. and the elderly has a cross on it because as u grow older, u become more health concious.

while this whole discussion was taking place.. Kiwi. ( think back..last year) yeah HIM. he sees me sitting down with my group mates and comes up to my table at the mamak. sits down next to me. introduces himself to my friends and sits on the chair pulled up right next to mine. i said hello to him and proceeded the discussion with my friends. and while i was discussing.. he kept shaking his legs and when he does that it hits against my legs! on top of that he kept poking me with his finger! i got quite annoyed..i just moved away. Later, one of my friends had to go pay her bill. and i said i'll follow her cuz my aunt was already coming to pick me up. he decides to tag along. while she was paying her bill.. Kiwi asked me to come over to where he was standing. calling me with his finger that is. and this is how the convo went...

Kiwi: *using index finger* Shra, come here.

Me: what?

Kiwi: ummm...errrrrr....aaaaaaa....

Me: hello? what do you want?

Kiwi: We're having lunch tomorrow(Thursday)!

Me: excuse me? Um... NO we're Not.

Kiwi: why?? we are. Tomorrow.

Me: I've got class from 8am till 2pm.

Kiwi: Then, after 2pm!

Me: I'm going home after 2!

Kiwi: *puts his hand on my shoulder* come on Shra, dont be like that. just like Sunway. haih...

Me: *takes his hand off my shoulder* NO. if u wanna have lunch next week, we can but my friends will be there.

Kiwi: hmmm......okay.

I mean seriously! SERIOUSLY! he's got some BLOODY NERVE to do that, doesnt he! but yeah...after that we just went home. i was quite pleased with myself =)

Friday, my mom wanted to go watch this Odissi held at Malaysian Tourism Centre. it was beautiful! i loved the whole thing. the dance and the colour of their outfits were so vibrant and beautiful!! we saw one of my uncles there. talk talk for awhile and went home. that whole night i had a migrain. a really bad migrain. went to the doctor and he said it was my gastric acting up again. he gave me some meds but i was in bed all day. couldnt stand up. got better though. thank god.

oh yes! on Sunday my grandmother called my mom and told her bout this cousin of mine(farrrrrr cousin) this guy named.. Sanjeev. He went to America and became a model! he was in Vogue! VOGUE! and now he's back here..modelling here. haha! he's quite hot la! i thought so :)

and today, i was listening to this song. "searching my soul" the Ally Mcbeal theme song. and i thought of those days in Ausmat where Shobz, Fel and I were helping Fel choose a song to sing for Talentime. i remembered how we sang this song so many times and all the laughs we had. i miss you all in Ausmat. i really do. i must say, it was one of the BEST years of my life. Miss you guys :(

Boom Boom Pow

2009-04-05T22:11:00.000-07:00

New Black Eyed Peas Song. its a catchy song and totally gets you moving! =D

If you listen to the song carefully(2nd song on my virtual Ipod), the part sung by Fergie..

"I'm so 3008, you're so 2000 and late"

love that line!

Did the wind sweep you off your feet?

2009-04-05T22:03:00.000-07:00

Drops of Jupiter

DROPS OF JUPITER

Now that she's back in the atmosphere

With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey

She acts like summer and walks like rain

Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey

Since the return from her stay on the moon

She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun

Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded

And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star

One without a permanent scar

And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation

Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey

She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo

Reminds me that there's time to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere

I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane

Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet

Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day

And head back to the Milky Way

And tell me, did Venus blow your mind

Was it everything you wanted to find

And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken

Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong

Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation

The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet

Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day

And head back toward the Milky Way

-thanks preet, you've got this song stuck in my brain!-

It just hit me!

2009-04-04T20:10:00.000-07:00

I think it just hit me that i'm gonna leave for a holiday/wedding to Kerala, India in a month!! 1 MONTH! this is prolly the first time to Kerala and it's going to be great going back to my "motherland" haha! We're going to attend a wedding on my aunt's side and then its shopping and temple visiting! i think the thing that i'm most excited about is the.. Boat Ride.

it looks not so exciting in the picture, but it sounds amazing! they chef's on the boat will cook any dish that u order and seafood right off the shore! i cant wait!! and in the excitement of it all, my mom and i went CRAZY shopping for punjabi suits and saree's for the trip! we bought.. 6 punjabi suit materials, 2 top's and 2 saree's! it was a bombshell but we hardly ever get good stuff like this! we're quite pleased with the buy =) thank you dv huney for showing me the shop!

.1 month and 2 days left.

OXFORD THESAURUS DICTIONARY!

2009-03-24T05:35:00.000-07:00

I BOUGHT THE LATEST EDITION OF THE OXFORD THESAURUS DICTIONARY TODAY!!!!

and i am SO excited! =D

My New Found Passion.

2009-03-24T05:26:00.000-07:00

In my Effective Communication class( performing arts), we are told to play diff roles every week and we'll be tested on our body language, vocal projection and expression. today, i acted as a maid. a maid who was forced to have sex with her male master. she bore his child yet he didnt wanna have anything to do with it. his mother threw him out of the house and he gave her 5 dollars to survive for life. 5 DOLLARS.

for the first time, i was very moved by this character and i really was excited in playing her. i realised that when i'm on stage..i lose myself to the character. i care bout no one or anything around me but only the character. and today.. i was so into her that i cried while playing that part. it shocked me on how much i felt for this character. but i loved it. i love acting. i love losing myself to characters that are this beautiful and meaningful to play.

i have found what truly makes me happy. i have found a new passion.

Just the right amount cheering up =)

2009-03-22T20:05:00.000-07:00

this is gonna be plain and simple..

thanks for cheering me up JC =)

i needed it.

2009-03-17T05:55:00.000-07:00

http://rage.com.my/media/album.aspx?&album_id=146&mediatype=0&cat_id=9

TREES
Check out the entries for our theme TREES, and the winning entry by Shrawani Shekhar

i won RM50, its still something! =)

The Engagement 140309

2009-03-17T03:20:00.000-07:00

i must say, after months of planning. the whole thing turned out PERFECT! tents were set up, center pieces done( thanks to Floristika in Bangsar) and the music was ready! the night was prepared and so were we!

the night before Sat( March 14), the uncles and of course my brother went and got some booze. okay..SOME is an understatement. it was prolly around 20 bottles of u name it! we had JD, bacardi, Wine, 3 diff types of Beer, and Vodka! we drank and laughed the night away. we started around 10pm and finished yapping and drinking at 4.30am. and the worst part, i was "HAPPY" but not DRUNK! why??!

anyways, that sat morning..we got the center pieces done and prepared the whole canopy outside. tried very hard to make the Garden Theme work. and safe to say, IT DID! it was VERY exciting to see the glow in Chech's and Manny's eyes when the saw the whole thing lighted up. it looked BEAUTIFUL. as manny walked in, i asked him, "how you feeling?" and he answered " uh..ookay" haha! nerves.. he looked very Segak!

the whole ceremony went on very well indeed. everyone in the family accepted the new way of an engagment whole heartedly and it was nice to see everyone had a good time. i know i did.

i wanna thank ALL THE COUSINS who helped out and made that night happen the way it did. it was FANTASTIC. these are some photos i love! <3

Music Connection-Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend.

2009-03-17T03:04:00.000-07:00

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Touch the Sky-Kanye West

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Dance Hall Rug-Boys Like Girls

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Take A Bow- Leona Lewis

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Call the Police-James Morrison

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Blind- Lifehouse

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Generator-Foo Fighters

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Breathless-Corine Bailey Rae

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Imaginary-Evanescence

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Yellow-Coldplay

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Gravity- Sara Barellies

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Learn To Fly- Foo Fighters

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Run To Me- Clay Aiken

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Superhuman- Chris Brown

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Fo'Hop-Sergio Mendes

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Harder to Breathe- Maroon 5

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Before the Worst-The Script

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Shine- Estelle

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
What Can I Do To Make You Love Me- The Corrs

HOW WILL YOU DIE?

Tangled-Maroon 5

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Daydreaming- Lupe Fiasco

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Please Dont Stop the Music-Rihanna

(shobz! i swear this came on and i started laughing!!)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Hurt-Christina Aguilera

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Love in this Club- Usher

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Pretty Vegas- INXS

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Shake It- Metrostation

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
With or Without You- U2

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Ghost Train- Gorillaz

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend- Beyonce

Advertisements that are Corupting our Brains

2009-03-05T00:43:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXqx7Niq-cU

this is because i was doing research on Pornography, i found this and it shocked me! u should see it for yourselves.

The Bucket List

2009-03-04T19:54:00.000-08:00

Yes i know, I'm LATE. But come on, i managed to only download it now. this is one movie that everyone SHOULD WATCH. what is it about?

"Edward Cole (Jack Nicholson) has worked hard his whole life to build his hospital corporation into a Fortune 500 company. As CEO, Edward is on top of the world when cancer comes knocking on his door. In the hospital, Edward is put into a room with another cancer patient, Carter Chambers (Morgan Freeman). The doctors have given both the news that they have six-months to a year to live. Carter just blocks out the bad news and continues watching Jeopardy on TV, because he knows all the answers. When Carter was young, he was able to attend the first year of college, but when his wife got pregnant, Carter found work as an automobile mechanic. Carter remembers that in one of his classes the professor gave them an assignment to fill out a Bucket List of the things you want to do in life before you kick the bucket. Carter starts writing his list of things to do. Edward sees the list and writes some other things to do like skydiving and race car driving. They both decide to leave the hospital and embark on fulfilling all the things on the bucket list."

This was the Bucket List they wrote :

Help a complete stranger for a common good
Laugh till I cry
Drive a Shelby Mustang
Witness something truly magestic
Kiss the most beautiful girl in the world
Get a Tattoo
Skydiving
Visit Stonehedge
Spend a week at the Lourve
See Rome
Dinner at La Cherie d'Or
See the Pyramids
Get back in touch
Visit Taj Mahal, India
Hong Kong
Victoria Falls
Serengeti
Ride a bike at the Great Wall of China

It was nominated for "Best Sound Editing - Dialogue and ADR for Feature Film" at the Golden Reel Award and Best Song Written for Motion Picture, Television or Other Visual Media- John Mayer, Say and he won the Golden Globes for that song.

This is definitely a Brilliant story. Heart warming and truly beautiful. if u get the chance, Watch It and......

MAKE YOUR OWN BUCKET LIST.

before its too late.

First Week of the Entire Year!

2009-03-04T19:18:00.000-08:00

3rd March-4th march 2009

This was the first week of my time here in Taylor's School of Communication. i must say it was definitely SOME week! first of all, finding my classrooms wasnt as hard as i had imagined. quite simple once you knew where each blocks were. anyhoo, then i found out that i only had classes on Wed & Thurs as there were no tutorials the first week. the subjects that i'm doing for this sem seemed SO interesting!

Subject 1 : Public Relations 1

Basically this is the introduction to PR. Product image, upholding a company's name and so forth. Advertising basically. ALOT of reading though..but really LOTSA fun! They will also be bringing PR people in the industry to come give us talks.

Subject 2 : Communication, Computers & Society

This is sorta like Information Systems in Ausmat. Learning about computers and the communication of it to the society. Also, an introduction to Mass Comm. We had to buy our own headset because we're gonna have to be communicating with ppl and making our own videos/movies. haha!

Subject 3 : Communication: Rhetoric & Reasoning

Critical Thinking! Thats exactly what it is! Thank you Ms Ruma & Mr Jay! haha. we HAVE to CLOSE our rooms and make sure its safe before we start discussing our topics. Some of the topics we do can be very disturbing, upsetting and highly provocative! The first time our lecturer came in, we talked about...

" There is No God. So shut up and move on. "

You could see the anger coming out of some of the ppl in class. thats when our lecturer said:

" You are now entering the Media Industry. You are going to have an open mind about topics like this. Everyone has their own Opinions. You have to Listen to them and make NO judgement"

And, guess what we have to research on this week to present next week in class? PORN.
YES ppl, i'm NOT joking. we have to do an Intellectual study about this Money Making Industry. haha! i tell you, THIS IS GOING TO BE ONE HECK OF A CLASS!

Subject 4: Effective Communication

i must say this is my MOST favourite subject! Its PERFORMING ARTS. =D Basically what we have is a given script and we have to go on stage and present it! ACTING/DANCING/SINGING!

i'm anxious to see whats in store for the coming days!

Standing Ovation!

2009-02-22T21:23:00.000-08:00

Watched the Oscars? NO?! well...you should have. it was one of THE MOST brilliant planning of an event i've ever seen! The stage, bringing back the past winners to introduce the nominees and announcing the winner, the performances, the band, and not forgetting the HOST! it was WELL DONE indeed.

I'm ever so proud that Slumdog Millionaire won 8 out of the 10 Oscars! BRILLIANT! not to say that i did not expect it, but they were up against very good movies. Even the performance that A R Rahman did alongside John Legendmerged very well together. ALSO, the perfomance by Hugh Jackman, Beyonce, Amanda Seyfried, Dominic Cooper, Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens was SO ENTERTAINING! doing their rendition of the musicals of the past and present. Hugh can really sing!!! WOOOT :P

Overall, i'm Happy with the Winners of the Oscars. they ALL deserved the win. HERE are the list of winners...

• Motion Picture: "Slumdog Millionaire."

• Actor: Sean Penn, "Milk."

• Actress: Kate Winslet, "The Reader."

• Supporting Actor: Heath Ledger, "The Dark Knight."

• Supporting Actress: Penelope Cruz, "Vicky Cristina Barcelona."

• Director: Danny Boyle, "Slumdog Millionaire."

• Foreign Film: "Departures," Japan.

• Adapted Screenplay: Simon Beaufoy, "Slumdog Millionaire."

• Original Screenplay: Dustin Lance Black, "Milk."

• Animated Feature Film: "WALL-E."

• Art Direction: "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button."

• Cinematography: "Slumdog Millionaire."

• Sound Mixing: "Slumdog Millionaire."

• Sound Editing: "The Dark Knight."

• Original Score: "Slumdog Millionaire," A.R. Rahman.

• Original Song: "Jai Ho" from "Slumdog Millionaire," A.R. Rahman and Gulzar.

• Costume: "The Duchess."

• Documentary Feature: "Man on Wire."

• Documentary (short subject): "Smile Pinki."

• Film Editing: "Slumdog Millionaire."

• Makeup: "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button."

• Animated Short Film: "La Maison en Petits Cubes."

• Live Action Short Film: "Spielzeugland (Toyland)."

• Visual Effects: "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button."

TRULY SPECTACULAR SHOW!

Here I Come, Baby!

2009-02-20T20:09:00.000-08:00

" We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted in the Bachelor of Arts(Communication & Media Management) at Taylor's University."

thats a hugh sigh of relief. its finally happening. =)

A Little Change

2009-02-17T20:16:00.000-08:00

haha! i say Little because the only thing i changed is what u see above :) my cousin came over last weekend and he had his camera with him. bored out the brains that he was, he made me be his muse. he JUST bought the camera and wanted to try it out on me. i said, what do i get in return? and he said.. i can drive his Subaru around my neighbourhood! i said, HELL YEAH! but, the catch was..the NEXT time he comes by, i'm allowed to drive his car. since i obtained my licence a month ago.

but it was fun! guess how many photos he snapped?? 606 pictures!!! HAHA! random snapping. out of the random, only 9 photos was what he kept in his camera. the supposed "good ones". BUT, i must say. it was LOTSA FUN =)

The Dream Interpreter

2009-02-16T19:06:00.001-08:00

This is unbelievable! yesterday, i had a dream that my mom, bro, sister and i were walking in a mall. suddenly my teeth started falling out. not all, just one by one it started falling out. i collected all those that fell out and told my mom that i wanted to see my dentist aunty to fix it back again. i woke up soon after. i just mentioned my dream to my other aunt, Aunty Mai. she insisted that it meant something. so i went to this book that my uncle lent to me, The Dream Interpreter by Tony Crisp and checked out what Falling Teeth meant.

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Teeth

If you dream of your teeth falling out, the cause may be sense of losing someone you love of who is close that has gone away. this leaces a gap in your life such as you feel when a teeth comes out.

when i read that, i could not help but be startled! my aunt was like, it makes sense since Shobz just left. thats why u feel that way.my god! crazy isnt it how dreams have a hidden meaning. if you really pay attention to it, it tells you things that u cant describe sometimes. haha! =)

December babies

2009-02-12T22:05:00.000-08:00

December

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

My Type of Angel

2009-02-12T21:41:00.000-08:00

this is the result of boredem. you tend to do quizzes on Facebook. haha. decided to take random ones..

Angel of Inner Balance

Your a balanced person, you may be bad at times, and good at others, but your a good balance. You can be on the receiving end or the giving end but no matter what, you always seem to come out balanced. You give good advice and direct people to lead a good balance of life. Your the ying and the yang. Your level-headed and rarely fail in life. You can be in the crowd and not seen, but you have the ability to shine aswell.

does it sound like me? i dunno. you tell me =)

~we cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails~

Its Hard to Say Goodbye My Love

2009-02-09T23:44:00.000-08:00

This post is written to and for all the friends of mine who have left, leaving or about to leave. Particularly for Shobini Balraj, Radin Faizal Arif, Thayasheri Subramaniam and Suvanya Sukumaran.

i think all this while, i've been postponing the fact that the people i care about, as mentioned above are leaving. in my head..i keep thinking. another week. another week. but HECK, now its today, this week, next week, and next month. time seems to flyby way to fast nowadays. WAY to fast. but i'm glad to say that i've remembered and always will remember the times we all have shared.

my darling cousin,

Suvanya Sukumaran, my dear darling cousin. we have gone through our whole lives together. our WHOLE LIVES. we've grown up together since you were 2 and i was 1. we have always confided in each other and learned so many life lessons together. i have always turned to you in times of need and so have you. i learned to take risks when i'm with you. risks in other ways. haha. i've opened my way of thinking when u confronted me about certain things. and through all that, i still LOVE YOU. although u and i have VAST difference in music, we still hear each other our whenever we have new songs in mind. times have never always been so easy for you and thats why i'm here. growing up without a proper support from both parents has always been difficult. i understand that. but dont you worry about a thing. i am always here for you and so is the aunts for your mother. Preet is under good hands with me and i will promise to take care of her. she's still a young girl and has alot to learn, but she's matured so much. learning from you, me and chechi. i'll be coming over there next year. i will NOT change my mind. i'm gonna work my hardest and come see you in Uni of Queensland. we will stay together, study together and have fun together. you have always been my second big sister. i love you very much, huney. see you soon. =P

my dear friends,

Radin Faizal Arif, i dont really know if u will read this or not..but i just wanna say, i wish ALL THE GUYS OUT THERE ARE LIKE YOU! i have never met a true gentleman until i met YOU. u are truly one of a kind. i'm happy to have worked with you last year. we have gone through alot last year. haha. ALOT. you have shared your stories with me and so have i. anytime u needed someone to talk to, i was here and so were you for mine. anytime either one of us gets upset, the other will be there to calm the other one down. u were my anger management and i was yours. haha. yet, through all that u still tease me EVERYTIME. thank you SO MUCH for everything u have done. i am truly gonna miss you. hope to see u there someday. *cut the nuts!*

Thayasheri Subramaniam, hard to imagine another one of us girls is leaving soon. i have known you since primary school yet we have never been close. since the gang came about and we all have been spending so much time together, i'm glad i've got to know you better. you are always there when i need a second opinion about my actions. everytime i've had my doubts. you will always be my drinking partner and my dirty jokes understand-er! haha. somehow, everyone else tends to get it a lil slower. ahakz! thank you so much love for all the times we've had. you have always been so confident and i admire that about you. Love ;)

Shobini Balraj, my lord woman. how much have we gone through? this year it'll be our 5 years of knowing each other. 5 years of enduring each other's pain. 5 years of going through all our problems and solving it. 5 years of loving the fact of having each other when we need each other. 5 years of being my best friend. 5 years of being, my sister. i love you so much hun. SO MUCH. thank you SO much for being there for me when i always needed you the most. when times were hard or even when they were happy. thank you for just being you and teaching me to be strong. i love you dearly and hope to see you next year =)

Hard To Say Goodbye Lyrics

We didn't make forever.
We each got to go our seperate way,
And now we're standing here, helpless,
Looking for something to say.
We've been together a long time.
We never thought it would end.
We were always so close to each other;
You were always my friend.

And it's hard to say good-bye, my love.
Hard to see you cry, my love.
Hard to open up that door.
You're not sure what you're going for.

I didn't want this to happen,
But we shouldn't feel sad.
We had a good life together.
Just remember, remember, all the times we had.
You know I've always loved you
You know I always wil
But no matter how far I may go
In my heart
You'll always be there
And it's hard to say good-bye, my love.
Hard to see you cry, my love.
Hard to open up that door.
You're not sure what you're going for.

You'll know I'll always love you.
You'll know I'll always care.
And no matter how far I may go,
In my thoughts,
You'll always be there.

(It's so hard) hard to say good-bye, my love.
(Baby, it's hard) hard to see you cry, my love.
(It's hard) hard to open up that door,
When you're not sure what you're going for.

(It's so hard.)
Good-bye my love.
(Baby, it's so hard.)
We didn't make forever.
It's so hard.
I can feel there's something more.
(When you're not sure what you're going for.)
We've got to work it,
We've got to try,
Though it's hard, so hard
We have to say good-bye
Though it's hard, so hard
We have to say
We didn't make forever.
How could we loose tomorrow?
We didn't make forever.
How could we loose tomorrow?

love you all, take care and strive to achieve your dreams.

Dreams..

2009-02-02T19:23:00.000-08:00

these past few nights i've been having the weirdest dreams. god only knows what they mean but hey.. THEY'RE DREAMS, DO THEY EVER MAKE SENSE? like srsly, do they? =S

two nights ago i dreamt that my close girlfriends and some of my Ausmates attended a wedding. it wasnt just any wedding but like some BIG celebrity's wedding. no idea who's one it was though. but it was a red carpet event. so my girlfriends and i wore over-the-top embroided sarees. it was BEAUTIFUL! the next day (in my dream) i read the newspaper and we were on the main events column!

this whole thing must be a result of me preparing for my sister's engagement/wedding and watching the red carpet events on E! News.

last night i had another dream. this was rather disturbing. it started with me and a few of my friends at a hotel near a beach. we were walking around the hotel(which was sort of like a mall on the inside) and i saw DJ there with his bunch of Coursemates. the ones he always hangs out with. he suddenly walks up to me and says all of these things that wanted me to be with him. he even mentioned "i love you" which is WAY to strong a word a person would use. in the dream i accepted him back (which would be something i'd slap myself now if it happened). then a whole group of my friends joined us and went to the beach. we set up this lot just for us and dugged the sand to hide our treasure. (yes i know, weird!) we had gold and ancient artifacts and what nots. we had to hide it away from Anil Kapoor cuz he was the villain! haha! the story went on..cant remember it now, but it ended with me being chased around by this maniac who wanted me to give him a kiss on the cheek to let me go.

This weird dream could be a result of me wanting to go for a holiday by the beach. =) DJ. god only knows why he's in it. could be cuz of his status change on FB that would have resulted in me having him there. which i dont really care about. i honestly dont. the treasure? haha! that must have been cuz i watched National Treasure: Book of Secrets a few days back. Anil Kapoor? Slumdog Millionaire! watched it twice now, must be stuck in my head. but the last part, the maniac chasing after me. i have got NO idea where that came from. =S

there's just too many things going through my head. haha! sometimes the dreams i have are rather funny, sometimes they arent.

somehow, i cant wait to find out what i'll dream of tonight =)

MOVIES ALERT!

2009-01-31T04:52:00.001-08:00

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN! these are the FEW movies that is a MUST WATCH!

1) Vicky Christina Barcelona

Two young American women, Vicky and Cristina come to Barcelona for a summer holiday. Vicky is sensible and engaged to be married; Cristina is emotionally and sexually adventurous. In Barcelona, they're drawn into a series of unconventional romantic entanglements with Juan Antonio, a charismatic painter, who is still involved with his tempestuous ex-wife Maria Elena. Set against the luscious Mediterranean sensuality of Barcelona, 'Vicky Cristina Barcelona' is Woody Allen's funny and open-minded celebration of love in all its configurations.

2) Revolutionay Road

A young couple living in a Connecticut suburb during the mid-1950s struggle to come to terms with their personal problems while trying to raise their two children

3) The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Tells the story of Benjamin Button, a man who starts aging backwards with bizarre consequences.

4) The Reader

Kate Winslet and Ralph Fiennes star in The Hours director Stephen Daldry's haunting period romance tracing the complicated love affair between a German teen and a mysterious woman twice his age. Based on author Bernhard Schlink's best-selling novel of the same name, The Reader opens in post-World War II Germany, where ailing teenager Michael Berg has fallen ill with scarlet fever. Nursed back to health by Hanna, Michael eventually makes a full recovery and decides to thank his benevolent caretaker in person. Upon being reunited, Michael discovers that Hanna loves being read to and the pair quickly enters into a passionate yet clandestine affair. Later, after intense readings of The Odyssey and Huck Finn, among others, Hanna vanishes without a trace, leaving Michael heartbroken and despondent. Flash-forward nearly a decade, and Michael is a law student observing Nazi war crime trials. When Hanna wanders into the courtroom and takes a seat in the defendant's chair, her past comes into focus just as Michael uncovers the secret that will have a profound impact on both of their lives.

5) The Wrestler

This is a drama about an aging professional wrestler, decades past his prime, who now barely gets by working small wrestling shows in VFW halls and as a part-time grocery store employee. As he faces health problems that may end his wrestling career for good he attempts to come to terms with his life outside the ring: by working full time at the grocery store, trying to reconcile with the daughter he abandoned in childhood and forming a closer bond with a stripper he has romantic feelings for. He struggles with his new life and an offer of a high-profile rematch with his 1980s arch-nemesis, The Ayatollah, which may be his ticket back to stardom.

The Waterfall

2009-01-28T19:43:00.000-08:00

The Waterfall

Refreshing it is,
Scent of the clean air,
Smell of greens after a wet night.
Heavy fog covered the grounds,
Too early for the sun to be up.
Picturing that moment,
Anticipating every step,
Breathing every little bit of nature,
Gave me shivers down my spine.
Journey to the top,
Was harder than imagined,
The view at sight,
Was everything i dreamt of.
Everything,
Perfectly positioned.
Marvelled i was,
The beauty of Nature,
and All its wonders.
I stood still,
Digesting each and every second.
For me,
It was this.
The gushing sounds of water,
Slamming against the rocks below.
The sprinkles of cold,
Hitting your face as you stood near.
It is then, I realised,
This is and will be,
My serenade.
That Beauty,
That Calmness,
That Unspoken Love,
That Waterfall.

RED ALERT!

2009-01-26T19:22:00.000-08:00

i'm too safe when it comes to picking out colours. so i decided...oh what the heck!

BE A LITTLE DARING SHRAV!

so yes... STRIKING RED was my chosen colour. somehow i kinda like it, a lil WILD and SCREAMS out........

SINGLE,CONFIDENT WOMAN!

Flavour of the Month

2009-01-21T19:07:00.000-08:00

This is gonna be something that i'm gonna be doing every month! i keep changing my thoughts and preferences! haha! so here it is....top 3 of each!

1. Food

Sizzling Chicken and Cheese from TGI Fridays
Grilled Lamb with Wine Sauce from George and Dragon
Mushroom Soup from Tony Romas

2. Drinks

White Sangria from Ittalianies
Blue Rasberry Slush from TGI Fridays
Longan Ice from my Thai Chinese Shop

3. Colours

Dark Purple
Turqouise
Earthy Brown

4. Movies (over the month)

No Reservations, Aaron Eckhart & Catherine Zeta Jones
Bed Time Stories, Adam Sandler & Courtney Cox
21, Jim Sturgess & Kate Bostworth

5. Actors

Collin Ferrel
Aaron Eckhart
Hayden Christensen

6. Books (over the past 2 months)

Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyer
The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks
A Place Called Here by Cecilia Ahern

7. Flowers

Martagon lily
Dittany
Amaryllis

8. Moments

Sitting on my patio watching the heavy rain pour, feeling the cold tingling sensation of each raindrop that gets blown by the wind and hits my face
Cooking and preparing dinner for my best girlfriends from High School. Everyone was there.
Having lunch with my Ausmates at TGI Fridays, Subang Parade. We laughed so much until our tummy hurt!

9. Animals

Golden Retriever puppy
Koala
Polar Bears

10. Tv Series

Heroes
Kyle XY
American Idol

Finally..I'm a P =)

2009-01-18T19:53:00.000-08:00

God! it such a relief to see those words on the paper! nerves were definitely taking its toll on me the first few hours. went at 7.30am and finished by 10.30am. pretty fast! haha. but FINALLY, i dont have to see my IDIOT ASS of an instructor! i swear! he's the BIGGEST ASSWIPE ever! keeps shouting at me and NO WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AT ALL!
"MACAM INI..MESTI TAK PASS HARI UJIAN NANTI! LEMBAP BETUL LA U NEE!" i swear, ugh! now..a BIG SLAP ON HIS FACE! u know what that DOUSHE said when i told him i passed? he was like.. "ye." with a sour plum face! oh well.. its all over now =P

Bahagian II : Lulus & Bahagian III: 17/20 Lulus

the burden if finally off my shoulders..passed with NO bribery! =P

Brazil Nut Hair Mask

2009-01-14T22:08:00.000-08:00

Ladies! I decided to try out the Brazil But Hair Mask from Body Shop! and i must say the end result was very satisfying! i've done it about three times now and my hair does feel alot softer than it used to before. i'm starting to get into the whole pampering myself phase now. so watch out for more updates on new products! haha :)

The Dancer

2009-01-13T22:19:00.000-08:00

The Dancer

Closed room full of mirrors,
Reflections of many sides,
Wooden floors made to smoothness,
and there, i see her glide.
I see the notes flying in the air,
Spreading through with so much flare.
I hear the beat penetrating the walls,
Waiting to soar to those who call.
I see her move with so much passion,
Love and satisfaction.
I see the glow in her eyes,
and all the light on her side.
I see a little me,
Waiting to break free.

In Love With Aurora

2009-01-07T03:40:00.000-08:00

i must say, this is random though... i really wanna go to Finland! i really wanna see the Aurora Lights. its the most beautiful work of nature i've ever seen and to be there and see it for myself would be FANTASTIC!

thank you for all of this =)

2009-01-06T19:56:00.000-08:00

i know this is late, but i must say, THANK YOU EVERYONE for the gifts on my b'day! i LOVED them SO much! *hugsandkisses*

beginning of a new chapter

2008-12-31T21:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

a new YEAR, a new BEGINNING, a new CHAPTER, a new FUTURE.

i must say that the outing last night was awesome! but it would've been much better if the whole bunchos were there. =(

Sujen, Shal, Shobz and I went to the Curve. reached the venue at around 5.30pmish. good thing we came early cuz we managed to find parking near the exit. we went to Ikea to get Sujen a hotdog(which was pretty damn good!) and walked to book seating at Bubba Gump. the only available slot was at 10pm. so we decided to go and watch a movie. so we headed to Cinneleisure and the only movie that had alright seats was The Spirit. after booking the movie, we went to Courts. Sujen wanted to go to Bentley to get the prickley thingy for Angeline =) so we walked and walked and finally reached the place. it was HUGE! there were SO many cool looking guitars around! haha. after which, Shobini Balraj was hungry( as usual =P ) so we went to Mc'deez, where sujen and shobz bought ice cream and shal got curly fries. time check: 7.00pm. we chilled out till 7.30pm and walked back to the movies. shobz got the nuggets that she finally wanted and we went up to the movie. Apparently, The Spirit was based out of a 1940's comic strip in the local papers back in the days. the movie was pretty confusing and i guess it took awhile before u understood whats going on. but i must say, the concept used while making the movie was different. some lines were plain lame and some were pretty funny (well, more like we made it funny!) anyways, after that we went to makan makan at Bubba Gump. got a seat outside. shobz and i had the Mama;s Southern Fried Chicken, with some weird appetizer with prawns, tomatoes, icky nachos and lemon flavouring and "that choc thing" for dessert. RM79.90! we got TOTALLY RIPPED OFF cuz everything was predone and it was hard and blehhhhh =( dv came by, and i think the two of us went a lil looney =P haha! i gave her a few sips of my Mango Sparkler and she went giggly! hahahaha! it was fun though!! *loveyouladvbaby* snap snap snap gambar with shobz's Shutter. he was quite the charmer i must say! got on everybody's hands! haha! after we bid our goodbye's to dv, we walked to the park where the party was. trying to find our way in the crowd. to my surprise, i saw Joey G on stage!!!! *screams* i pulled everyone and squeezed my way through the crowd to get closer to him. haha. we ended up near the DJ guys and beside the Clowns. haha. 30mins away to countdown. there were LOADS of people in the crowd. THOUSANDS around. but it wasnt the stuffy. it was nice. it was just nice. then the countdown begun, 50, 40, 30, 20, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6,5, 4, 3, 2, 1, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Fireworks came on!! and my gosh it was SO BEAUTIFUL. we right under it! it was AWESOME! our necks hurt cuz we had to look up, but it was worth it! SO MUCH FUN!

Dearest, Chui Ki, Annie and Ling, sorry that we didnt get to meet. the phone lines were really bad. so near, yet so far. next time then! =P

My darlings...Sujen, Shal, Shobz, Dv and Ming Jie, thanks so much for being there! it was so much fun!

To Lokzha, Thaya, Dienesh, if u guys were there, it would have been perfect :)

Everyone in Ausmat, i love you guys loads! its been great meeting all of u! Happy New Year loves!

My Sri Aman girls, missing u guys loads. hopefully i'll get to meet with u guys soon! yes, mimz you owe me lunch! Boh and Kuan, we have yet to have dinner together! haha :)

Old Friends whom i still cherish, i hope you all will have a great year ahead of ya! good luck :)

Life is an Occasion, Rise to it.

one door closes..

2008-12-30T05:04:00.000-08:00

the end of 2008 is drawing near, a day left to be

exact. i know i say this every year, but time flies really fast. for some reason, it went by extremely fast this year. there's so many things that i've learned from this year. MANY to state, but as far as i know, i've grown. grown to be more mature in handling things and mature in my own little way.

i've experienced things that i hadnt before, learnt from them as well. most of all, i've met a whole bunch of FANTASTIC people this year. a whole new bunch of GOOD friends. here is a recap of the whole 2008 and what i have achieved and what had happened.

1. enrolled in AUSTRALIAN MATRICULATION PROGRAMME.
2. met with good people who i can call, my good friends.(love you all!)
3. got involved in the Student Council.
4. Head of the Talent Night Committee (turned out to be awesome!-thank you team!)
5. went for the Student Council Trip to Langkawi. (much much fun!)
6. opened my mind to critical thinking and deeper emotions in Eng.
7. new found interest in the OXFORD DICTIONARY!
8. experience-boys.(need i say more?)
9. said goodbye to Zai ( funniest most sweetest guy i've met =) miss u much!)
10.spent time with abandoned and incapable children.
11. became Sunway's One Top Model (pffffft =P )
12. spent lotsa time with family!
13. had great bunch of lecturers. (new found appreciation for the gay community *winks* )
14. not so excellent results. but got accepted in Taylor's School of Communication =D
15. Gonna be doing the course i love, Bachelor of Communication & Media Management.

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MEMORIES, IT WAS ONE HECK OF A YEAR! *hugs*

Here Comes The Bride =)

2008-12-27T05:14:00.000-08:00

26th December 2006

In this day in history..
EMMANUEL DHOSS proposed to ASHVINI SHEKHAR!!

i must say it was the HAPPIEST days of our lives! to hear that my sister, my darlingest and most dearest sister was going to be wed!! when we heard the news, we all totally flipped out! (in a good way, of course)

Mr Dhoss was apparently holding the ring from October and never could find the right time to propose to Ms Shekhar. They were always interrupted in some way or the other. he finally decided to kneel down on his knees and officially ask her. this happened in my sister's apartment in JB.

my dear brother was so overwhelmed by this news that he decided to start having "fun" with drinks from 12pm onwards! he kept calling me in between, singing his lungs out and laughing so hard while saying " I LOVE U ADIK!" and " ITS TIME TO PARTY! ADA KAHWIN DALAM KELUARGA!" hahahahaha! HILLARIOUS i tell u! i've never heard him THAT drunk in my life. he messages me this morning saying that he's going through the worst hangover in his life!!

To Mr Emmanuel Dhoss and Ms Ashvini Shekhar, i wish u ALL the happiness for u both and may good things come your way! I love you two very much! *hugsandslobberykisses*

I'm not perfect, I'm trying my best

2008-12-24T22:24:00.000-08:00

Results are out. i must say that i was expecting more than what i got. it broke my heart to millions of pieces. but, there's no point crying over spilt milk. i guess the part i hate the most is the talks of family members. the hurtful words that they say, "you wasted ur mother's money", "you're a disappointment" and etc. it hurt alot. hurt deep. i must admit, i disliked the subjects i did this year. applics and econs isnt my most loved subjects. but i tried. and shouldnt that count? it was my mistake, i blame no one for it.

Now i know, that next year i'll be doing the course that i love. I'm applying to the Taylor's School of Communication doing the Bachelor of Arts(Communication & Media Management). the subjects that are being taught seems interesting! such as, Media Literacies, Document Design & Publication, Advertising, and so forth. If i get good results in the first year in Taylor's (which I am going to prove to everyone, that i will get good results) then i'll be doing subjects like, Introduction to Broadcasting, Photography in UQ. i believe that i will be able to do it, and i WILL do it.

spend a couple of nights crying. thinking of what everyone was saying about me. i was browsing through the songs in my Ipod and i stumbled upon this song. i never really cared much earlier of what each word in the song meant until i really listened to it. "HE STILL LOVES ME" by Beyonce.

"He Still Loves Me"

Took me a while
But I'm finally here
So I just wanna testify
Make it crystal clear
See I've been picked out
To be picked on
talked bout outta me friends mouth
I've been beat down
Til he turned my life around
(turn my life around)

seems like I always fall short
of bein worthy
Cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me

I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shinin on me
(no no no no no)
cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me
Loves me

I used to wake up somedays
and wish i'd stayed asleep
cuz i went to bed on top of the world
today the worlds on top of me
everybody's got opinions
(they share)
They aint been in my position
(they don't care)
that it breaks my heart when I hear what they
have to say about me yeah
(what they say)

seems like I always fall short (fallin short)
of bein worthy (Lord I aint worthy)
Cuz I aint good enough (no no)
but he still loves me (still loves me)

I aint no superstar
I wanna be for you
The spotlight aint shinin on me
(but i want to be for you)
cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me

I'm not perfect
(I'm not perfect)
Yes I do wrong
(yes I do wrong)
I'm trying my best
(trying my best but)
But it aint good enough
(just aint good enough)
Shunned by the world
(shunned by the world)
If I don't succeed
Cuz I aint good
But he still loves me
(I just aint good enough)

If you aint worthy just raise your hands
And let me know that you understand
That we are all so blessed
To be loved, loved

stand for him or fall for anything
cuz through his eyes we all look the same
What will we do
Without out pain

Feels like we always fall short
Of bein worthy (we are not worthy)
Cuz I aint good enough
But he still loves me
I aint no superstar
(I aint no superstar but I wanna be for you Lord)
The spotlight aint shinin on me
Cuz I aint good enough
(Oh)
But you still love me

I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm tryin my best but
(tryin my best)
It aint good enough
(I'm not good enough)
Shunned be the word
(shunned by the world)
If i dont succeed
(i dont succeed-ceed-ceed)
Cuz I aint good enough
But he still loves me
(child sing with me)
I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm tryin my best but
It aint good enough
(But the Lord's been so good to me)
Shunned be the word
(Shunned by the world)
If i dont succeed
Cuz I aint good enough
(I aint good enough)
But he still loves me
(The Lord still loves me)

No I aint good enough
But He still loves me
(Raise your hands if ya understand)
No I aint good enough
(How he blessed me cuz he blessed you too)
but He still loves me
(even though I aint worthy)
No I aint good enough
(you aint worthy, He's there for you)
but He still loves me
(no matter what I do)
No I aint good enough
(I aint good enough)
but he still loves me
(but the Lord still loves me)

i'm not good enough, but i know the Lord still loves me and i know i'm gonna be okay. i will prove to everyone, that i'm gonna get GOOD results next year.

All My Single Ladies!

2008-12-21T19:23:00.000-08:00

"Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"

All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies
Now put your hands up

[Verse 1]
Up in the club, we just broke up
I'm doing my own little thing
You decided to dip but now you wanna trip
Cause another brother noticed me
I'm up on him, he up on me
don't pay him any attention
Cause I cried my tears, for three good years
Ya can't be mad at me

[Chorus:]
Cause if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you should've put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you should've put a ring on it

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[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
I got gloss on my lips, a man on my hips
Hold me tighter than my Dereon jeans
Acting up, drink in my cup
I could care less what you think
I need no permission, did I mention
Don't pay him any attention
Cause you had your turn
And now you gonna learn
What it really feels like to miss me

[Chorus]

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[Bridge]
Don't treat me to these things of the world
I'm not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve
Is a man that makes me then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms
Say I'm the one you want
If you don't, you'll be alone
And like a ghost I'll be gone

All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies
Now put your hands up

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[Chorus x2]

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this is to all my single ladies! hit em' back girls! haha! u know we DESERVE BETTER! *winks*

Imagine

2008-12-21T05:22:00.000-08:00

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
- Hurt-Christina Aguilera

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

-Single Ladies(Put a Ring On it) -Beyonce

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

- Like You'll Never See Me Again-Alicia Keys

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

-Bubbly-Colbie Caillat

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

- Fighter-Christina Aguilera

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

- Faith-George Michael (have faith in ppl)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

- She Wants To Move-NERD

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

- The World's Greatest-R.Kelly

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

- Live Your Life-Rihanna feat TI

10. WHAT IS 2+2?

- Song 2-Blur

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

- The Sweetest Thing-U2

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

- One Night-The Corrs

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

- There She Goes-Sixpence None The Richer

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

- Sway-Michael Buble

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

- Dont Forget To Remember Me-Carrie Underwood

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

- Dance With Somebody-Whitney Houstan

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

- Lady Marmalade (haha! go figure ;P )

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

-Hot Stuff-Craig David (hell yeah!)

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

- Paralyser-Finger Eleven

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?

- Suffocate-Jay Holiday

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

-Maybe- Kelly Clarkson

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

-Me, You and My Medication- Boys Like Girls

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?

- Hate that I Love You-Neyo feat Rihanna

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

-Imagine-John Lennon

thank you andrea! haha. it was so much fun! =D